If you read any of my blog posts, you will know that I have started a challenge to memorize 24 scriptures in a year.  This has proven to be much more harder than I thought, and it has only been 3 days!! UGH!  It isn't the memorization that is my problem.  I have decided to meditate on the scripture I have chosen each day during my quiet time.  I did not know how to determine which scripture I should memorize first.  Jeremiah 29:11 came to mind at first, but since I could recite it without even looking I figured I should try something new.  I started to pray about what God wanted me to learn this year.  He screamed at me, "PATIENCE".  Something that I now realize he has been screaming at me for a while.  I am patient when there are 24 kids screaming and running around the room yet when it comes to my plans and my life, I tend to be as far from patient as possible!! I looked up several scriptures on patience and kept coming back to this one...so I figure this is a good start.

" Rest in the Lord and wait patiently for Him; Do not  fret because of him who prospers in his way because of the man who brings wicked schemes to pass" Psalm 37:7

    I worry.  I worry about school and whether I will be a good teacher.  I worry about what people think of me and whether or not they see who I really am.  I worry about being a good person and the choices that I make.  I worry when I disappoint people.  I worry about how I am serving the Lord.  I have realized that I worry a lot.  Not matter how much I think that I let God have things in my life, I don't.  I give somethings, the things that don't really determine how my life goes.  I give Him other peoples issues that they tell me about.  I tell others to give it to God and yet I hold on to so many things.

  I am so tired of worrying.  Tired of wondering what life was going to give me and not enjoying what I already have.  So I am giving it all up...school, relationships, Kaleo, my future.  I know that God has me in His hands and loves me more than any of my family, friends, or my future husband ever can.  God will give me everything I need while I stand firm in His love and His safe and unconditional arms.

I still have 12 days left to memorize and pray on this scripture.  I cannot begin to think of what other many, many lessons I need to learn, but I know that I will be listening and waiting.  I really can't wait to see what this year holds for me and all of those around me.