Yes...two blogs in one night!

I have a hard time with taking compliments. Earlier this week, I had a horrible day with many self-doubting thoughts running through my head. Some were that I couldn't do what God had laid down for me, wondering why God chose me for certain tasks. I have never, ever had a day like that. After a little coercion from a friend, I started talking about things. It seemed to all boil down to one thing, lack of confidence in my abilities.
I tend to think of myself as still being 12. Although it helps me to youthful and fun with young ones, thinking that way can severely hinder my self image. I have a hard time taking on leadership positions, not only for fear of FAILURE(that dirty 7 letter word) but I seem to not get over the " I am too young" thought. I will tell myself that no one will listen to me and that I haven't had near enough experience with whatever topic it is. It doesn't really matter if it is true or not. I seem to lose sight of the fact that God wouldn't give it to me if he didn't think I was the best person for it.
A great example... I am the director of the Elevate bible study at my church. This group is a mixed group of single people from 20's to 60's. We have the BEST time in class and outside of church too! I have received compliments of how great the group is going. It has been hard for me to say thank you, not because I am rude, but because I see things that could be changed and done better. Are there things we could be doing differently? Definitely. Are there things that we are doing really well? Most definitely!
As I have been trying to walk more in God's light, I decided to see what the bible said about confidence. Here is what it had to say:

Psalm 71:4-6 (New International Version)

4 Deliver me, O my God, from the hand of the wicked,
from the grasp of evil and cruel men.

5 For you have been my hope, O Sovereign LORD,
my confidence since my youth.

6 From birth I have relied on you;
you brought me forth from my mother's womb.
I will ever praise you.

God has been there for me through my youth. It is only through His grace that I have been able to get to where I am.