"Why, oh God, do I worry about things when I know that your plan is so much better than anything I could imagine? Why do I give my problems up to you, only to turn around and take them back, thinking that I can do a much better job. What things could I possibly do better than you, Father. Prepare my heart for your will and help me to have a submissive mind and soul. For you know the plans that you have laid before me. You know what is best. You have laid out a life for me, with all the blessings you have prepared for me. I give it all to you Lord. I give you my future, all the dreams I have can be accomplished only with your help. I give you my family and friends, Lord. I give you my issue of marriage and relationships. For you know the guy that is perfect for me. Whether I am not ready or it is he, I know that when the time is right, he will walk through the door and everything will be right. It is all in your timing, Lord. I am so thankful for the many blessings you have given me. For the my friends and family, for my education and school, for my new friendships and the chance to make many more. I thank you for the chance to lead a wonderful group of singles through the path that You have laid for them. I lift them up and pray that you will shower them with the many blessings they deserve. Lift my spirit today Lord, that I will see Your hand in all that crosses my path, no matter the tears or laughter. I lay down my worries, Lord, and pick up the cross. I pick up my cross and follow you, the one that brings everlasting life."

I have had a crappy day today. I woke up with my brain full of things that I have decided are important enough to worry about....wrong! There is nothing that is actually important enough to worry about. A lot of the things that I am worrying about I have NO control over, so why should I worry about it. I have given things up to God, and then have decided to take them back, thinking that He is not doing the job that I want. He wasn't being fast enough, or getting the results that I wanted...I want...I want. That is all that I have been talking about. Why are things not going my way, what i want to happen, who i want to date, what i want or don't want to do... It is not about me, at all. Have you ever had one of those days? Where you just know that you could do a better job than anyone else in your own life? Has it ever turned out for the best? Do you ever wonder if it could be better if God has been in control? I am the director of a wonderful group of singles. I wonder what God was thinking, putting me in charge. Did he know that I don't have everything worked out? That when ones asks a question, I may not answer the way they need it? Self doubt is creeping in and putting a blanket over my light.