I just got home from bible study.  It never fails that the moment I begin to think about skipping bible study that God puts a plan into motion to get me to the church.  Today was nothing different.  I was in the middle of grading papers, fully intending to sit and continue grading when my good friend text me and asked if I wanted to go to BJ's to get some dinner before heading to bible study.  I apparently cannot turn down food :) I quickly finished up my grading and drove quickly to meet her for a quick dinner.  After dinner, we drove to bible study and I was NOT feeling it.  I didn't want to be there.  I have this feeling generally when God is going to reveal something to me.

I am not one to say,"the devil is getting to me" or anything to that effect, but I know the feeling when I get it.   It is this feeling of nothingness.  A feeling of pure awkwardness came over me as I sunk down in my seat.  It was weird, but a feeling that I have had before.

As I worshiped through music and scripture, I felt my heart open a little bit more than when I sat down.  I started to feel better as I listened to my sweet friend, Heidi, talk about Ruth and Boaz.  Through out the whole night, all I heard was a small whisper saying, "Let HIM go"  Although I do not wish to fully disclose on a public blog what HIM is all about, it was what I needed to hear... and I finally am ready to do that...no matter how late it is.