Having had a crazy day, I just finished writing a semi-devotional. Seeing as this is one of the firsts that I have ever done, I am a bit shy to put it on here. Go easy on me!

Fear

Webster defines fear as “an unpleasant often strong emotion caused by anticipation or awareness of danger” I have lived my life in fear. Fear of getting hurt. Fear of hurting others. Fear of failure. Fear of rejection. Fear of the unknown. Fear of relationships. I have been fearful through out my life, mostly fearing the unknown.
I recently watched the movie, Facing the Giants. It goes through the year of a high school football coach that puts his full trust in God. He has everything going in the wrong direction. His boys weren’t winning, he was in fear of losing his job, and he and his wife could not get pregnant. As he changed his attitude, and looked to give God the glory no matter what, things changed.
His team and other coaches picked up on his attitude and started performing better. They made better plays, grades, and improved relationships. The Eagles eventually went to state playoffs, beating the three time reigning champs. It was through God that the miracles happened.
This got me thinking about my life. Why do I fear so much? One of my favorite lines in the whole movie is "If the Lord never gives us children, will you still love Him?” (Coach Taylor is talking to his wife) This quote got me thinking. One of my biggest fears is that I will not find the mate that God has chosen for me. After watching the movie, and going through some events recently, I had to ask myself,” Miranda, if the Lord never gives you a husband, if you are supposed to be single, would you still love Him?” How thought provoking!
If God never gave you a child, or that perfect "X", would you still love him? Would the blessings that he provides be enough? God has a plan for everyone. During the movie, there is also a story about how there were two farmers praying for rain, yet only one prepared the soil. Which do you think God would trust with his gift?
How do you prepare your heart for that relationship? How do you prepare your mind or soul for that perfect “X” that you have been praying for? I cannot expect my perfect mate to cross my path until my heart is ready to receive him. Will that be tomorrow? 5 years from now? I do not know. This is why God wants us to trust in him. Psalm 9:10 says, “Those who know your name trust you, O Lord, because you have never deserted those who seek your help” (God’s Word for Students). God will never leave my side. Through all my waiting and my sadness, I know that in God’s timing, he will show me the Godly man that I am to spend my life with. In God’s timing, he will provide your every need. The hard part is waiting for God to make the buzzer go off. Patience is a virtue!
Selah, one of my all-time favorite music groups, sing a song titled “Wonderful, Merciful Savior”
Counselor, comforter, keeper
Spirit we long to embrace
You offer hope when our hearts have
Hopelessly lost the way, Oh we hopelessly lost the way

When we lose our way, and feel as though God is nowhere in sight, God is there, walking right beside us. When our hearts break due to a wrong choice, God is sitting on the couch with us, embracing us with His love, soothing our hearts, calming our fears, and spoon feeding us raw cookie dough!:) Through it all, God is telling me,“Miranda, I love you, and I will take care of you, if you will let me”