Below is one of my favorite poems. Some of you might know it from a little movie called In Her Shoes. I think this poem is beautiful and wanted to share it with you! Michael Hedges put a tune to the poem. It is a 1990 video of him performing it. Enjoy!

i carry your heart with me by E. E. Cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

I am sitting here, at 1:03am wondering why I am writing this instead of finishing up my homework and getting to bed. I have something to say, and can't do anything else till it is off my chest. Since my friends would KILL me if I called any of them right now, dear blog, you are my late night friend, so I confide in you. (wow, i must be loopy, talking to my blog...geez)
I feel run down, and broken. I feel fearful of the future and whether or not I will make it. I feel alone sometimes in this big world. I feel like I am standing still, just waiting, stuck in mud of financial burdens and living up to worldly expectations, not being able to move. I feel the love of family and friends, encouraging me, but maybe not understanding me fully. I feel sadness for the one's I miss and the one's I have driven away. I feel mad at the broken promises and the words I couldn't keep.

However, I see the ray of light, God standing there with his arms open wide, taking away my sickness, fear, loneliness, discontentment, misunderstanding, brokenness, jealousy, and hate. Giving his son up for me, so that I may feel joy for the best friend that eats chocolate chip pancakes with me, love for the family that helps me when times are tough, peace in HIS will, contentment in my place, and patience for the many blessings that lay ahead. I see God waiting with an umbrella to shelter me from the storm. I see the cross, and fall to my knees, gasping for breath while praying. I hear the angels, singing soft hymns of praise in my ear. I feel fatherly arms, covering me with love. I hear the soft whisper of I love you in my ear, letting me know that it is not He that has left. I close my eyes and take a deep breath, ready to face a new day, taking it step by step, minute by minute.

 

During Spring Break, my mom and I had a day to be on our own. One place that we went to was the San Xavier Mission, a working (with monks and everything) mission just south of Tucson. It was amazing!!

As many know, I am the director for the singles bible study, Elevate, at my church~ Second Baptist- Pearland Campus. We meet at the Pearland Cinemark Theater. I have decided that with all of this technology and tools to reach people, why not use it for a good cause, to reach singles and put out a positive message. The blog will have event details for the month, summaries of our lessons, pictures of past events, and devotionals. Hope to see you there! Click here to see blog.

On February 28, I walked the 5K rodeo race downtown Houston. I loved it! It was so much fun!!! I made new friends and did something that I didn't think I could do!! Here are a couple of pictures!


Before the race

Crossing the finish line ( I am in the pink)


My time plus a few seconds...

I have had a lot of friends come and go in my life. Many of them have stayed more than gone :) Throughout my life, I have found friends that have helped me through the different stages of my life. They have encouraged me, loved me, laughed and cried with me, and stuck with me when the going got tough. I would give anything to help any one of my girls that needed me, anytime, anywhere. Sarah, Heidi, Melodye, Michelle(s), Tanya, Rachel(s), Dru, Shannon, Meagan, Sarah, Kelly, Aeriel, my mom, my cousins, my aunts and all of the other women that have made an impact on my life, I thank everyone of them!
I love you, girls!
**I can't put a pic of everyone up, so these are just a few of my "girls"

So, in the past few weeks I have been reading a book called Lady in Waiting. I love this book! It talks about how you should be fulfilled through a relationship with Christ, not through a man, job, house, etc. The chapter I am on is called the Lady of Diligence. It talks about all the things that you can do during this time of waiting. Being a single woman, I can do things now, that I would never be able to if I had family responsibilities. So I decided to make a list.

I want to:
1) write a series of devotionals based on my life experiences as a single Christian girl
2) spend a summer in a 3rd world country helping new mothers learn the importance of early child development
3) work as a counselor at various youth and children events
4) Travel on Route 66 across America

These are just a few things that I want to do...
If you are just waiting for things to happen, what are some things that you want to do for God and his glory while you wait?